So, it’s not really that i’m jealous. I have my own thing going. For the first time i’m in love and it’s like, “All those other times? what was I thinking??!”
Before I go off on a tangent again, the point I was making was this… it’s not jealousy. Just an uncomfortable feeling of ‘Really??! This is what you chose?! I thought you were cool!” She’s my friend, a pretty close one. I know she’s a great person and all, but man! she’s as thick as a bag of bricks!! and she’s not into any cool stuff… Do I sound resentful? Maybe I’m a little jealous.
It’s not even that I want to be with him, that’s long over and I realize that we wouldn’t have worked. He just realized that sooner than I did… Seems kind of insensitive to me though that he would tell me he’s interested in a friend of mine and would like me to liaise between the two of them, when I confessed how I felt to him a few years ago AND we both made fun of her for being stupid and really kind of slow.
Guess it all comes down to looks, then. She is very pretty, and I’m just average. So, maybe I’m more than just a little jealous.